“I can do it by myself!”
There is a joyful moment as we grow when we no longer want help, but to prove we are capable of doing it by ourselves. From potty training to bike riding, being able to do it by myself is such a fulfilling accomplishment. It’s a part of growing up, becoming self-sufficient.
I want to be fully self-sufficient. I want to be strong. I want to prove I’m capable. Of course, as we grow hopefully we learn the value of depending on others. We learn we don’t have all the answers, we may even call our parents and ask for help. We reach out to talk when we can’t sort through our thoughts and feelings. We look. to others to help us keep accountable for our goals.
When it comes to my spiritual life I recognize that the goal is not to be self-sufficient but to be fully surrendered to God.
I’ve been on a journey this year of self-discovery. I’ve learned a lot about myself, how I perceive the world and how I can best connect with God. I do believe in learning ourselves better we can learn to better connect with God. I also believe it is equally important to learn who we are through the lens of how God sees us.
My point is simply this. There is a work within us only God can do. No matter how self-sufficient we may want to be, no matter how much we discover about ourselves, we must come to a place where we are fully surrendered to the Lord.
The work God wants to do in me is something I could never accomplish in my own strength and my own finite knowledge. However, I do have the responsibility to position myself to allow God to work in my life. This means approaching my prayer time with less of my agenda and more just to seek a deeper relationship with my Father. It is in intimacy that God really begins to reveal more.
We live in a fast-paced, instant notification culture and it’s easy to forget that the work of intimacy is not a fast-paced work, but requires an investment of time. Getting to know someone on a deeper level requires lengthy conversations over a long period of time. It is no different in our walk with God. It is a slow work, but such an important work.
Trying to live a surrendered life, without intimacy is drudgery. For one we all struggle to stay surrendered. Our own will constantly tries to take over. Just this week I had a desire to do something that I know would have been a disaster. I knew it wasn’t something God was leading me in, yet for a few days, it seemed like such a great idea! If I had let my great idea lead my life then I would have gone down a path that could have potentially derailed my life.
I want to remind you today that intimacy with God is a daily pursuit. Persist. Don’t give up. Keep creating time each day to spend with Jesus. I know some days it feels lacking, but never judge the whole of the pursuit by one day or even one week. As you are faithful to position yourself to receive from God He is faithful to continue the work He started in you.
Philippians 1:6 (TPT) I pray with great faith for you, because I’m fully convinced that the One who began this glorious work in you will faithfully continue the process of maturing you and will put his finishing touches to it until the unveiling of our Lord Jesus Christ!